Blink of an eye.

I am currently 19 now, and I always asking myself,
'What have I done so far? "

Sometimes, I fall into a deep sentimentalism as more truths and realities reveal in life.
Time passed, time flies. Everything happens in a blink of an eye.

When it comes to a pause in one's hectic life, he or she will start to think and recall back the things and memories that flow into his or her mind.
Analyzing them with different facial expression as each story run through the mind.

When I was born, 
I have both my grandparents from the father's and mother's side.
And now, three of them have gone with the Lord. :)


Two more days, I will leave this place I have already used to it so much, to a place where I've never been before for 3 months.

The period is not long, but it's long enough for me to settle down and think about,


what are the things that I should cherish? 

When I first announce that I will be leaving soon, my family was quite shock with the decision.
My grandma cried, she said, she will miss me.
Aunty Chin went to Australia for further studies, around 1 and a half years.
Long enough to make us miss her.
Kenneth Bro shifted out and yes, I kinda lose a person that I always tell my stories to.
Dad is in outstation for work.
And I'll be flying to Redang in 2 more days.

Ofcourse, I would say it is such a great blessing that everyone has their own destiny in their lives, and gradually, the family is expanding, in numbers and in different places. Haha:)

I just realized that, we are no longer family with small kids, running around, quarreling with brothers and sisters, talking about so-called secrets and stuffs we used to do when we are young. :)

Friends hung out with me at the very last minute, just to say a good bye.
Isn't it warm and lovely to have a big bunch of friends that love and care for you?
And I know I have been lying to myself that, friends are just a tool with a false front.

I know, i know, I will give a big slap to myself.
I hate this feelings where the Satan lies to me that there's no true love in this world.
I shall follow after God's word, to love and to be loved.


God, please forgive me for being so unfaithful.


I love my life, love the people I meet, love my enemies who have taught me to be stronger.

I love my Lord, Jesus Christ.
Thank you for everything. :)