Time gallops.

In this year of 2011,
I think I have an insight of my true colours.
As in, I prefer the current me.

Sometimes, the reality just give you cool splash and tons of lemons.
But who cares, every time I pray and lay my life before God,
and surrender myself so that I can live the way He wanted me to live,
I have to be crystal clear that the selfish in me has to be broken down, destroyed and demolished so that I can live a selfless life, which I can actually bless others and be more fruitful. :)

Make use of your 'lemons'! :)

Friendships have really tried on me for the past few years.
Over, over and over again, I have been wondering why do my friends always ditch me when I need them.
And why do they like to bully me and hurt me with those unreal rumours?

Am I really that lousy? I always ask myself.
But through years, I have an insight that somehow, in needy times or soon after some times,
we are still friends at last.

I truly believe that everyone does face such conflict.

Some complain that you are way too busy for them.
Some complain that you are dull, too serious, never want to join them.
Some complain that your religion  has occupied your time and restricted you from going certain places.
Some complain that you are not their type.
Some ditched you because they found someone whom they think is awesom-er that you are.
and some just left without any reason.

Just let it be part of your life, it's something that has taught you to be stronger.
LION HEART! <3

Jesus is our friend, if you feel lonely please tell him.
He is always there beside, and He is the ONLY one who ALWAYS beside you.

I understand that we can't live with ourselves, stay alone all the time.
But think about this,
You will never meet your true friends if you don't realize the fake ones.
Even small small things test them, and you will understand the whole picture.

Yeap! :)

However, don't make it a melancholy.
In my point of view, there's no such thing as FAKE friends,
maybe they just found someone who suits them more,
so why don't just bless them and move on?
Perhaps, God has reserved the best one for you? :) You gotta discover it yourself.
Let go and let God.
It will be better if you live with an opened heart. :)

Stressed = Desserts :)

My last blog post was really depressed, I know.
However, today after Leader Cell in church, once again God has reminded me about His words. :)
Psalms Chapter 23. :)

The Lord is my shepherd! And He will always be!

Therefore, I need not worry about my life and whatever.
I shall be with Him every time, every where.
Recovering now.

See, I'm not easily defeated because Jesus never ever leave me alone when I fell.
He's my supporter, my motivator as always.

Stress. :/

Struggling through adversities, and somehow I'm tired of being hardworking.
I  have no idea. Just wondering if my competitiveness has gone down.

Somehow, in my own thoughts,
if I lose my competitive ability, I would fell into a deep depression and feeling lost.

I know I shouldn't be that negative, but sometimes, things just don't go according to what I've planned.
Tried hard to be a successful person, but sometimes feel lonely because of my tolls.
When I try to get some life, there's no one for me to look for.
It's like a real slap on my face. Contradictions, oxymoron, that's how life usually comes to me.

Look at the bright side, would it be another pace for me to learn something new, something which is out of my expectations, something unexpected?

Monday to Sunday, got exhausted everyday.
Rushing everyday just to get everything done, ran out of fuel and still think I'm strong.

I know I shouldn't take it seriously what people have said about me.
Honestly, attempts to satisfy everyone is impossible.

Lecturer said that I'm not suitable to be in the kitchen.
It seems nothing. But I do not know why this sentence keep on recalling in my mind.
And flashbacks flow into my mind,
Studying really hard, being really focused on what I want, did researches on this field, apply for scholarships and loan, burn myself at the both ends, strive hard to be the top student, and in the end, it's something I don't wish to hear.
And someone telling me that I'm not meant for this.

Oouch. I know I'm such a easily heart break person.
At the moment, I was really disappointed like never before.
I lost my focus abruptly, and my mind was blank.
Is that mean that all my hard works are just fog?

I feel like, I'm nothing, an anonymous, I don't know who I am.

Dear Jesus, I'll commit these frustrations and confusion into your hand.

In Jesus name I pray, Amen. :)

:)

Dear Lord, Please save me from heartache.

I'm patient enough for all these, and I'm tired.
I guess, I'll just surrender and see how God resolves it.
I know I shall be optimist, and I'll always be.
But somehow, something will deteriorate and can't be preserved.
I tried hard, but it doesn't work.

However, I know the pain will build up my immunity, and I shall not be defeated, as usual. :)

Amen.
Thank You Lord.

Teeeeheeee:D

Well. Urm. 

Sometimes, I don't really understand how will it be, if you fall for someone. 

But yeah, it's kinda insecure, don't you think so?

I don't know why am I so funny these days, 

laugh at myself because of these lovey stuff.

*Shake Head* 

Never mind, I don't want to be so lost.*LAUGH* 

As usual, I'm still the awesome single xiao ming. Teeeeheee:D  

I'm INNOCENT. 

Thank you Lord. :) 

Term 2 Final!

Having Final Exam this week !
Dear Lord, have mercy on me, please! :P

Just finished my Food Science paper,
More difficult than what I expected, urgh.
Avidin, I should have know you earlier. Didn't really know that you binds with Mr.Biotin.

Well, 1 marks gone. Never mind. *Smile*

And Yeah, Planned to go FHM today, but no transport. Too Bad So Sad.
All the best to all my seniors and chefs who participate in the Culinaire! :D

Back to school! :)

Hey peeps! :)
It has been weeks, I did not update my blog.
But yeah, who cares. The blog is just for me and myself. :))

I hearts UNI! :)
It is a blast, never get bored in college. Friends, Food and Studies.
I believe that it's God's blessing after all.

Nonetheless, there are always some mishaps right?
Some guys, I would rather run away from them. Weirdossss.
I'm sorry to say so, I don't mean to dislike them.
But just, you know........gross. :)

I'll try my best, pray harder for them.

Term 2 commences, and I did not loss my enthusiasm for the food.
Ahhhh, everyday I'm doing something I like!
Overwhelming happiness. :)

Term 1 results released. Surprised!
Thank you Jesus for that!
You know what?
God helps me to manage my time, gave me wisdom to organise my stuffs,
and all the surprises happened in my life never fail to make my day. :)

Let His name be glorified! Amen! :D

Random. :)

One more week of holiday. :)
Gotta make it adventurous one.
Cooked a lot of stuff throughout this holiday.
At least, more frequent compare to previous days.

It's kinda hilarious, when you can't really find someone to accompany you and initially you thought there's always someone available huh?:)
Don't get me wrong, I AM NOT EMO.
I'm too naive sometimes, bad bad bad. LOL.


And this reminds me not to rely too much on human beings, God is always there for you, no matter what circumstance it is. :)

Peace Out! :)

Be.Lives Youth Camp

Second Photo Collection!

Glad to see campers with pale white faces roaming around, it was amusing yet entertaining. 

Well, you guys are really bold as I can see that some of you had a hardship with the flours on faces but still laughing and smiling. 

By the way, it hurts huh? :) 

Awesome-powsome people like you guys should be complemented! 

Grateful for all the cooperation from you all throughout the camp and together we made it a memorable one. :) 

God Bless! 

Peace out! :) 

Be.Lives Youth Camp.

Let the pictures tell the story. :)

3 days 1 night, we stayed in Bayu Beach Resort, Port Dickson.

It was a blast! Though there are some flaws.

Thank God for the saved souls, they are now our sisters and brothers in Christ!  

It was really a good experience for me as a committee. :) 

Good Job to all campers! 

May all the glory to our Lord! :)

P/S: Those pictures are just teasers, more yet to come! :) Credits to Shun Li. :)

Photography Collection.

Just some random pictures taken by me.

 :)

Gloomy Red. 

Butterfly.

Firework. 

Cameroon.

Hibiscus.

Love is in the air.

I have no idea why but recently have heard a lot of rumors and news about this crazy little thing call love roaming around.

I guess it's because we all have grown up, and it has became a legal thing to do huh?
Love is blind, I truly believe this quotation.
Sometimes, I just couldn't understand why would that happen to my friend,

Those were the days we couldn't abide by a boy's attitudes and behaviours,
and now, my friend is really into him. LOL.
Initially, I'm like WOW. It's unthinkable, but yeah, it has just happened.

Once I was really desperate to think about my future, and I now I look at myself,
I find it extremely amusing. :)
There's so much things yet to be accomplished, to be achieved.

A person told me that strong, tough and independent girls don't really attract boys to go after them.
So, do we have to be weak or act like a loser?
I understand, God has His rules written in the bible, saying that man should be the leader of the family.
However, I suppose that men are meant to be stronger than women.
Dare to take the challenge guys, some women are just to difficult to be pursued,
but if you think it's worthy, you should say "bring it on!" LOL.

Yeah, I know I'm just a novice in such topic. In fact, I don't even have had an experience.
It's what I think though.

Let's see, sometimes I do think woman likes to imagine absurd and intangible dreams.
There's no such thing call the best one, but only the right.
Everyone is imperfect, find the right one to complete the missing pieces in one another.
That's why, the saying ,"Love completes" exist.

As for me, there's no need to rush and worry.
God has the best and the right one for me,
wait and see, he shall be revealed someday in future. :)

Before the blog post ends,

Please don't forget to read this. 

Love is patient, love is kind. 

Love does not envy. 

Love does not boast. 

Love is not proud. 

Love does not dishonor others, 

Love is not self-seeking,

Love is not easily angered, 

Love keeps no record of wrongs. 

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 

Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

1 Corinthians 13 : 4-8

Understand and perceive the definition of LOVE before you love someone. :)
All the Best peeps, in your hunts! :)
God blessed.

Generation Gaps?

Generation Gaps do exist?
Chatted with a group of 12 years old teenagers today in church after Sunday School.
Well, felt happy and contented teaching this group of students, hmm,
 it's better off to say that I get to know them more through an informal sharing and conversations.
Teenagers nowadays aren't the same as we were. HAHA:D

In the sense that, different generations possess different kind of attitudes and values.
There's no right or wrong between generations,
It is just that the way they handle things, the way they think, the way they express themselves differ.

LOL!

Dream,
in ancient times, dream is just a dream,
too fragile to hold and it's only a fairy tale, a fantasy,
which will only exist in their own imagination,
Realization of dreams is just a luxurious desire,
not everyone have the opportunity. 

On the contrary,
in modern days,
it's all about WANT, not NEED.
Kids say, "Dad, I WANT this!"
Seldom see kids make a request like, "Dad, can I have this, PLEASE?"
They have everything they need.
Demanding. They WANT more than NEED.
Blasphemes.   

Not trying to accuse anyone. In fact, it's a fact.
Moreover, I confess that,
I am a city kid,
I am a typical 90's kid.
I am the second type of person.

My dad used to be very strict and fierce to me,
Mumble and scolding me when I am not following his law.
No compromises, he stands emphatically firm on his own principles.
Authoritarian.
Albeit it has been a tough time to abide by his angers, but he is still the best discipline teacher ever.

Look through a 12 years-old boy's facebook profile.
He tells everyone the girl he likes, wrote her name and publish her photos in his own wall.
That seems very bizarre in our generation,
as time goes by,
the new generation has learnt to be more outspoken,
somehow, I couldn't accept the way they express their feelings and 'secrets'.

Same situation applied on my family,
I'm the only 90's child in the family,
I do feel neglected some times,
I know they don't mean it and I found it is difficult to point out the significant problem.
How to explain...
er, it's like when I say something,
their responses are not the same as what they usually respond to one another.

In a nutshell,
I do believe that Generation Gap exists,
but it can be rendered harmless.

I have such problem in young age,
But through prayers, I can see the outcomes,
I can communicate with different generations,
They key to subdue this dilemma, is to assassinate your ego and LISTEN.