Exhausted

Days have been quite negative lately.

I know God is with me nevertheless.

Yes, seems like I lose a lot of things, leaving life uncertain, at least at this stage.

To much things to digest, but I can't throw some out.
Dream and Realistic somewhat contradict, standing at the crossroad, I think I shall be realistic.
I am dare to dream but I want to change the reality to the way I wanted it to be.
Of course, life is not a piece of cake. Many times, the world had told me I'm always a failure cause I'm just a human, all my hard works are just playing fool with myself.

God told me I shall not be defeated for He has overcome the world.
Amen. I truly believe that.
No matter what happens, I will still do my best in everything.

Yes, and life always plays tricks with me, I have no idea at all, how to get rid of them.
People who work hard might not succeed in life.
Envying people who is abundant financially, and of course they can always talk about dreams, of course.
Wanted to make things better but ended up everyone thinks you suck.
Watching chances pass by, but you can do nothing.
It seems like you have a choice, but actually you don't.

Used to eat alone, shop alone, drive alone, work alone...
Am I independent or just trying to hide something that I don't realize?
Something's wrong with me.