Exhausted

Days have been quite negative lately.

I know God is with me nevertheless.

Yes, seems like I lose a lot of things, leaving life uncertain, at least at this stage.

To much things to digest, but I can't throw some out.
Dream and Realistic somewhat contradict, standing at the crossroad, I think I shall be realistic.
I am dare to dream but I want to change the reality to the way I wanted it to be.
Of course, life is not a piece of cake. Many times, the world had told me I'm always a failure cause I'm just a human, all my hard works are just playing fool with myself.

God told me I shall not be defeated for He has overcome the world.
Amen. I truly believe that.
No matter what happens, I will still do my best in everything.

Yes, and life always plays tricks with me, I have no idea at all, how to get rid of them.
People who work hard might not succeed in life.
Envying people who is abundant financially, and of course they can always talk about dreams, of course.
Wanted to make things better but ended up everyone thinks you suck.
Watching chances pass by, but you can do nothing.
It seems like you have a choice, but actually you don't.

Used to eat alone, shop alone, drive alone, work alone...
Am I independent or just trying to hide something that I don't realize?
Something's wrong with me.

Tolerance

It's almost end of the year.
I'm glad that I've come across all the events, 

and the word, T-O-L-E-R-A-N-C-E,

has finally teach me a lesson. 

Year of tolerance,

Bumped into all sorts of people, 

with all sorts of characters and personality, 

it's an eye-opening year. 

Those were the time I once thought I was mature enough to differentiate who's good and who's not.

I'm totally wrong. 

I was too naive, thinking everyone would treat me good, if I treat them the same way.

But things can be deceiving and being misinterpreted. 

People do have different values and mindsets, isn't? 

If I tell someone that I've countered the things I encountered,

I suppose, one will just say "Welcome to the World, Hunnay. " 

Certainly, the world is complicated, 

and thank God,

The Bible says,

We don't belongs to the earth. :) 

There's nothing much I can do,

Keep the faith, keep believing, keep moving, keep focusing on God. 

Very the.. aiks. :/

I'm so sick of people who make everyone trusted him/her so well, 

just because of the jokes and things he/her tells everyone. 

Make fun, telling other people's secret and spreading rumors to gain trust from other people? 

Give me a break. 

Okay. *Take DEEP Breath*

Stress released. :) 

Let God handle everything, cause I'm nothing to convict a person. 

PEACE OUT. TEEEEHEEE! :) 

And everything revealed.

I was so so shocked after being told about the things happened behind the scene.

Never want to hurt anyone, but now,

back bitten. 

How terrifying the world is, even in the place where everyone thinks is the safest. 

It will be exhausting if I had to explain from A to Z. 

In fact, human beings are too complicated, and it might make it worse. 

Lookin' at the bright side, 

at least I know, 

the true colors of certain people. 

So.

Lord, May your righteousness be revealed. :) 

I don't know. :/

Some people just can't hide themselves. 

Well, he used to be so friendly, lovely,funny and caring. 

Everything has changed since I tell him the truth. 

So now, 

You're trying to play some trick? :P 

I'm so confused about the way you treat me now. 

Anyway, 

Hope that you are not just somebody that I used to know. 

:)

Blink of an eye.

I am currently 19 now, and I always asking myself,
'What have I done so far? "

Sometimes, I fall into a deep sentimentalism as more truths and realities reveal in life.
Time passed, time flies. Everything happens in a blink of an eye.

When it comes to a pause in one's hectic life, he or she will start to think and recall back the things and memories that flow into his or her mind.
Analyzing them with different facial expression as each story run through the mind.

When I was born, 
I have both my grandparents from the father's and mother's side.
And now, three of them have gone with the Lord. :)


Two more days, I will leave this place I have already used to it so much, to a place where I've never been before for 3 months.

The period is not long, but it's long enough for me to settle down and think about,


what are the things that I should cherish? 

When I first announce that I will be leaving soon, my family was quite shock with the decision.
My grandma cried, she said, she will miss me.
Aunty Chin went to Australia for further studies, around 1 and a half years.
Long enough to make us miss her.
Kenneth Bro shifted out and yes, I kinda lose a person that I always tell my stories to.
Dad is in outstation for work.
And I'll be flying to Redang in 2 more days.

Ofcourse, I would say it is such a great blessing that everyone has their own destiny in their lives, and gradually, the family is expanding, in numbers and in different places. Haha:)

I just realized that, we are no longer family with small kids, running around, quarreling with brothers and sisters, talking about so-called secrets and stuffs we used to do when we are young. :)

Friends hung out with me at the very last minute, just to say a good bye.
Isn't it warm and lovely to have a big bunch of friends that love and care for you?
And I know I have been lying to myself that, friends are just a tool with a false front.

I know, i know, I will give a big slap to myself.
I hate this feelings where the Satan lies to me that there's no true love in this world.
I shall follow after God's word, to love and to be loved.


God, please forgive me for being so unfaithful.


I love my life, love the people I meet, love my enemies who have taught me to be stronger.

I love my Lord, Jesus Christ.
Thank you for everything. :)

Here and Now. :)

Wooooooyeah! :D

My first internship had finished. It was a blast,seriously.

Nevertheless, when I try to recall the days which I wake up at 5 and go home around 6, sometimes 11pm.

It was super exhausting!

I would like to pay my respect and tributes to all the hotelier and chefs.

Iron man and woman, thumbs up! :D

 

And yet, it's another time for me to go for my second internship! :)
Well, far away from this forest of buildings, cars and cold-blood stuffs that exist without any sense of life.

Yeah man, you are right! Imma heading to somewhere which is extremely appealing and breathtaking! :)

 

Yes! Do not doubt! It's here. :) 

I wish my placement in this place will be a memorable one. I know it will be, God's blessings after me and I shall look to Him, whenever I go. :)

Nevertheless, I would miss my friends and family kinda bad, for I have not leave the mainland since I was born. This is the first time that I need to fly off to another place for such long period of time. :) 

It's time to grow up, girl. :)